Just gotta remind myself that God only pushes you to your limit. I can still handle this, I can still do this.

I'm flipping out. My control-freak ways are going crazy because of all the challenges that God is presenting me at the moment. But I'm always thankful and grateful for all the mentors that He's placed in my life. I need people to listen to me so I can externally process, but more importantly, I need people who can offer their experiences and their insights. Without them, I would not be sane.

It's kind of funny how God works. I haven't been the most consistent with prayer and Bible reading, but He's basically rocked my world so hard that I HAVE to turn to him. I HAVE to realize how powerless I am, and that I have to give it all up to Him.

I really wish I could sum this up all in a Bible verse right now, but I think the one that I read that led to THIS BLOG POST is pretty morbid and indirect. It wouldn't be very uplifting or encouraging at all; it's more of a "oh, they messed up so I should learn from their mistakes" kind of verse.

If you REALLY want to know, Isaiah 42:23-25. Take note of how much God has control over the events of turmoil to Israel, and thus how God has control over our own personal lives.

Please pray:

• That I will have the patience and willingness to give up everything to God
• That I will make the right decision, while keeping everything I learned at BCEC retreat in mind.
• That the mentors in my life can help guide me in a positive and fulfilling way that can glorify God.
• That God will continue to help Northeastern IV grow, and continue to challenge and every individual in the group.