When you can't stop thinking of the messages given during a retreat

Even when you're doing the one thing you love that gets your mind off of ALL things, THAT'S when you know God has been working.

I was sitting on stage today for my Wind Ensemble Band performance, and while we were playing I just couldn't stop getting these ideas out of my head.

This past weekend, I went up to New Hampshire to go to a BCEC college retreat. The theme was Calling, Career, Companionship, and Christ. There's nothing I can really say to truly sum up the whole entire experience, but I think I noticed early on in the retreat why exactly I was there.

Ever since I've started going to BCEC, I've been able to apply the teachings that are being given every Sunday even without me consciously knowing. That's God working. I've been able to see God working in my everyday life and I've been able to identify areas in my life in which I need to get to know God more. But I don't think I've ever thought about my future career/life goals and incorporated God as part of it. I always joke around that I'm going to go to medical school for a year, find a mate, drop out, and marry the doctor. But where's God in this picture? Okay, the doctor could be a strong Christian man, who's attractive and faithful; but what about my career goals? What about my passions?

Yes, marrying a doctor isn't REALLY what I want to do with my life (although that'd be nice). I need to strive for a mission in which I work to solve what burdens me the most. I should be like Nehemiah and go for something that I could constantly be in prayer about, and constantly think about, so much so that I'd drastically change my life just for that purpose alone. I have to admit, I don't really know what my burden is, but until then, I'm going to be a Christian teacher UNTIL I hear my calling. I mean, maybe teaching IS my calling and I just don't know yet, but in time, God will reveal himself to me; not just through career goals, but with companionship as well. I just have to be so completely in love with Jesus that I'm content with the richness of having a relationship with Him. If I do that, somebody who I can meld my mission with, who I can devote myself to and go through the good and the bad with, will come in due time. But I mean, who says I can't be blessed with the gift of singleness?

God definitely revealed a lot to me, and it kept me questioning which is always a good sign. We're probably going to debrief in small groups later this week, so I'm really looking forward to that. May He continue to work in all of our hearts and continue revealing himself throughout our daily/future decision making.