college, college, and MORE COLLEGE

So i'm at Barnard Pre-College Program right now, enjoying my sweet time living in the city for a month. The first week has been okay. It's been pretty hard trying to adjust to new people and be open minded to new adventures and opportunities. I met a lot of people, from New Jersey, Massachussets, Connecticut, CALIFORNIA, etc etc etc. some nice, some mean, some annoying, some boring. It's a whole range of people out there. I've been so secluded in LaGuardia with my little group of (half) Asian friends that I forgot all about the other people around me. I hated PCP (i'm abbreaviating because i'm not typing pre-college every single time) for the first couple of days because I wasn't in my comfort zone and people were not sociable enough to approach me at all. There would be silences in the elevators because nobody wanted to get to know each other. Needless to say, I've found a small group of friends. There's Roger, a sophomore from San Diego and Alison, also a sophomore from San Diego. They're both best friends that came to PCP together and I'm really happy that I found them. We hang out often and they're both pretty studious so we study together a lot. There's also Caitlin, who sometimes hangs out with us. I forget where she's from, but she's really fun to talk to.

Why did I go to Pre-College?
I originally went to Pre-College for only one reason: I wanted to go to Barnard; and that was my focus. It never really occured to me that it's Pre-COLLEGE. There's a LOT of work! It's not all fun and games. I actually have a 3 page paper due on social ecology for pediatric psych due this friday and a 6 page paper on international crises due next thursday. It's pretty intense, and the classes are hard. I Just really hope I could get my self esteem up and start participating more in class. I haven't raised my hand a lot during class and it might affect negatively on my conduct :(. On top of that, they have these evaluation papers at the end of the summer that they write for each of us, and I'm scared that when I apply to Barnard, they'll read that. So if I do REALLY well in a certain class, hopefully it will be a positive thing for my acceptance

COLLEGE APPLICATIONS!!!
I've started on common app already (I know I'm a freak) and I've started my USC application. The essays are mad intense and I'm really not looking foward to the essay concept. I also need to start thinking of who to ask for teacher recs (I know, super late). I think i'm going to get my math teacher and my Japanese teacher. I wasn't too great in Japanese but I was a good student with terrible test taking skills. Maybe she'll write something good (HOPEFULLY) T_T.

well I have class in half an hour and I really cannot fall asleep in class anymore. It's so bad because the classes are small (18 people) and the teacher can see me falling asleep and I feel bad because she's such a great teacher. UGH. D:

I really want to be at VBS right now. Tell me how the kids are!!