Everything that has happened this past month is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me

Leaving him behind
Talking to him became an addiction and eventually, that's all I cared about. I didn't care about the friends around me. I didn't care if I was disrespecting anybody for texting him all the time and not talking to my friends face-to-face. I always was in contact with him 24/7 and knew what he was doing every minute of the day. Eventually, I talked to him more than I talked to God and my spiritual life went down the drain. I was afraid to come back to God because that would mean giving this boy up because he wasn't Christian and he wasn't good for me spiritually. I couldn't do that and so, I decided to put him over God. Every single 365 picture or any general picture on my tumblr became any text from him. It was BAD.

I know that him falling for another girl was probably all part of God's plan. It was necessary for me to go back to God and refocus my priorities. Him leaving me was the best thing that's ever happened to me, and even though sometimes I miss having somebody to text 24/7, a human being is never as reliable as God.

Leaving my home church
I've grown too complacent in my home church. I didn't feel like I was growing and I was simply going so nobody could ask me "WHERE WERE YOU LAST WEEK??" I simply went to hang out with friends and nothing I learned in services processed in my head. I felt like I knew all the answers, but I was just too lazy to apply it all.

After I moved to Boston, I was forced outside of my comfort zone. I was in an entirely new world with nobody I knew and no support group directly behind me. You would think that I would rebel and do all those "NON CHRISTIAN" things like partying, drinking, etc. because nobody was watching, but I think it forced me to turn to God more than it did to turn from God. I knew that the people I would meet wouldn't be completely reliable and at that point I didn't have a group of friends I was comfortable with and could always be with at all times. But I just remembered that no matter how lonely it can be, God is always there. He's constantly working in my life, and it's been more and more prominent as I'm living here on my own.

Intervarsity started up on Monday and I've never felt better. I went to Freshman Small Group on Wednesday and met some really cool sophomores that seem really open to meeting us and helping us feel more comfortable at IV. Today (Thursday), we had this thing called Catalyst, which is basically a small group of people from IV who come together once a week to do praise and prayer. It felt REALLY nice. Even though I didn't know about 75% of the people in the room, we were all worshiping the same God as one church. I knew, that at that point, God had put me in the right place. I had found my place of belonging and I met these people for a reason.

Even the churches here in Boston are amazing. It's time for me to go to a multi-ethnic church instead of a primarily Asian based church. Citylife is amazing and the speaker really makes me think. I'm checking out a new church called Reunion with some people from IV this Sunday, and probably going back to Citylife for a second visit--yes that is indeed two churches in one day. I'm really excited to see how much I will spiritually mature in college.

I've never felt more confident about why I'm here in THIS college on THIS road with THESE people before. Thank God.