I wish

There were more guys at my school

As many of you may (or may not) know, I go to an arts school which is compiled of a 75% female population. the other 25% of guys are all either gay, taken, or ugly. Now you're probably thinking, "well 25% is still pretty high". Really now? Then how come in almost every one of my classes, there are only 2 guys for every 30 or so girls? Its not a 1:3 ratio. Its a 1:15 ratio. With that being said, being in a female dominated school can have its pros and cons. Pros:
- focus more on school work than on guys
- more people to relate to you
Cons:
- no boys to date in high school
- no variety in terms of thought

It kind of frustrates me how I haven't had a real hardcore crush on a guy for the past 3 years in HS. And now, I don't even know how to talk to a normal male teenager. I used to be so good at chasing guys and getting their attention, but now, I don't even know how to. I just sit on the side and wait. Wait for what? I don't even know. And the problem is, everytime you do happen to have a crush on a guy at lag, there's always another girl that likes him as well, adding on to the competition.

This was such a girly post. I'm sorry.

i should totally blog a lot more

When xanga used to be cool, I used to write about my day. every single day. even if it was a routine day in which I did pretty much what i do everyday. But nowadays, I just don't have the time or patience to do so. I wish I had so much more time. I could do so much more... or so much less due to procrastination :p
I'll probably write more in the summer when I have much more time. In the meantime, I need to find a good headshot to put on my Barnard ID card for this summer. YAY.

Mothers

I was actually gonna submit this into the boon Blog but I felt that it wasn't "christian" enough because it's not really based on a bible verse or anything that struck me.



We normally don't realize how much we take our mothers for granted until
A) they leave this world, or
B) we become parents ourselves

It never regularly occurs to us how much they sacrificed for us. Those tormented 9 months she had to endure while God knit us in her womb, the terrible pain she felt as she brought you into this world, the dreadful hours she spent trying to assuage your every need for the first 2 years of your life, and the time she could have spent hanging out with friends but instead spent her time home catering to your every need simply because she loves you that much. Thank God for giving you such a wonderful mom, even though she may always be on your tail bothering you about SATs; even though she may have yelled at you because of your grades; even though she may have told you you were going to be a failure in life; even though she may have embarrassed you last time you went shopping with her. She did all those things because that's just what Asian mothers do. They nip at everything you do because they love you and they want the best for you. So maybe this coming week, do whatever she asks you to do; don't rebel because that will only cause you trouble. If she doesn't acknowledge you for your efforts, don't get upset. She still appreciates it even if it may not seem that way. Pray with or for her, and spend some quality one-on-one time with her. Maybe you could go shopping with her, or maybe you could take her out to dinner. Whatever your choice, be the one who caters her to her every need/want. Do something in return to appreciate all she has done for you.