In school, it is typical of us to form groups as soon as possible so we don't need to deal with other people, and we can gossip amongst ourselves without anyone else knowing. I however, was pretty reserved in freshman year and did not form a group with anybody. I was super judgmental (at least more judgmental than I am now), and judged everyone by first impressions, whether it were (was?) your bad habits, attitude, excessive cursing, etc. But near the end of the year, I found a close friend to be with, but still no group. I'm still best friends with this close friend of mine :).
However, this past year was the sweet sixteen year. I didn't feel comfortable enough to go to certain sweet sixteens only because there were cliques and groups invited, and so, I would be left alone with nobody to stay with or talk to. I look at past friends that have graduated recently, and everyone had their own groupie.
I didn't have a groupie and I still don't. I'm kind of a floater that just goes to each and every group and hangs out with everyone. It's alright, but you don't really get to know anyone too much. I'm kind of part of a crazy asian group consisting of really nice and funny half asians and asians, but my best friend isn't in it, and she doesn't really have a group, so I feel kind of bad sometimes... I hung out with my "group" today, which totally just came together 5 minutes before we were leaving, and I found it to be a lot of fun. I got to know everyone a heck of a lot better and I'm not regretting it at all.
I'm just saying I have a group to make myself feel better... :(
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