As I look at all my middle school friends' pictures, I see clearly exactly how they grew physically. It was kind of surprising and a wake up call: WE'RE SENIORS. It's been about five years since middle school ended and everyone looks so much more different. I looked at an old friend's picture and he seriously looked like what a senior would look like if a little kid were to see it: older and muscular. As I saw other people mature, I still did not see the change in me. I flipped through older photos of me and I definitely changed a lot in terms of hair. LOL. I'm a bit obsessed with my teeth and hair. I'm not crazy. I swear. I'm so glad I permed my hair. I look so much nicer :)
okay aside from that, I really didnt see anything else change; until I flipped to my xanga. I do this quite periodically just to see how far I've come and I definitely did mature emotionally. I cursed quite a lot back in the day, and here I am, judging freshmen in high school who curse like crazy. Way to be hypocritical Tracy. I used to be OBSESSED with guys and would make these emo comments in the beginning of my blogs. Honestly, I don't even remember what they were supposed to mean because I don't remember which guy I crushed on back then.
Damn, I was stupid back then.
I also noticed how unhappy I looked in a LOT of pictures. I definitely wasn't as happy as I am nowadays in pictures. I don't know why. It makes me kind of upset that I didn't enjoy life back then as much as I do now. Is it because I finally found my groupie in school? Could a group of friends that I can associate so well with that I could literally spend every hour of every day with them (IF ONLY I LIVED IN MANHATTAN) be the key to happiness? I don't know. Maybe it's the sense of belonging that I strive for. I love being accepted for who I am and what I do.
